It's sooo nice to wake up when it's raining. Those are the days I'm happiest to get up for some reason. Like I know the whole day will go slow and I can just relax with some tea and read all day and not feel like I haven't accomplished anything. Ha! Just an excuse to be lazy I guess.

I've been reading Fruits Basket for the past week or so and I finally finished the 23rd volume this afternoon. Best series ever. It was so weird watching them age and go through three years of high school, and looking back and seeing how much they had all changed. So much drama in the second half, ack! When Kyo's curse finally broke in one of the last books, I cried. The scene was just perfect. ^_^ So many times I actually felt a surge in my heart. I'm glad it turned out okay for everyone, and even the bad guy had a change of heart at the end. So wonderful...I've shelved it again but I'm sure I'll be bringing it out again next year.

I've been in such a funk lately. It was nice to read that but since practically EVERY character ends up with someone at the end it makes me feel kinda lonely. I mean, it made me happy that after all the crap they went through they were okay at the end, but it still made me sad in a way. Like they went on without me...Mom's right, I live in a fantasy world, and I realize I'm getting sucked deeper and deeper into it. But reality is just so.... I really hate parties and crowds but I'm not sure what good I'm doing shutting myself out like this. I don't really feel sad all the time but it makes me wonder...am I happy or am I just really good at distracting myself? Jeez, this music is really getting to me.

Becky and I finished XXXHolic the anime show. It was so good! I really like how they did the ending. The show is about Watanuki working at a wish shop for a woman named Yuuko and at the end they walk you through like you're a customer coming in, so it closes the show but you feel like it hasn't really ended...Ouran ended the same way, with the whole Host Club welcoming you in at the final scene. I can't explain it but I just love that feeling!

Wow, I just went through my icon hoard and laughed hysterically at all the stupid quotes for 5 minutes straight, no lie. Ow, my stomach hurts!!

Perfect song for a day like today, "Fantasy" by Atsushi Sakurai. A quiet, but not sad song, it's just...calm. A rainy day song.

I really feel like watching Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon or something. I match everything with a season and certain weather, so when the conditions are right, I'm like "ah, this is the perfect occasion for-". I can't help it! One of my many interesting quirks. ;)

"I was only dreaming
I was dreaming of you
Like a shimmer of heat bursting into flames
The two of us embraced one another
I melt deep into you
Ah, the two of us can’t return" - "Fantasy", Atsushi Sakurai